Tuesday, May 5, 2009

I've Come To Realize...

I have come to realize that trusting God with all of your heart, soul and mind is hard. Just when I think that I have given it all to Him, there is one last thing...I was recently inspired to spend more time with God...and so I am. I have had my moments with God...really great moments, but they are few and far between. I want more of them..so I am doing what I was inspired to do :) So far it has been quite hard, and it has only been a week. I love love love music, and enjoy listening to all all of the different kinds, this week I have listened to nothing but christian radio, let me tell you...that has been difficult!!!! just when i want to changethe station because of talking and static, one of my favorite songs comes on and it is clear as day..is that God or what :)

There is that one thing that is so hard for me to just give to God. Its so hard, and I dont know why. I just want to trust Him, but I feel like (and I know its satan) if I give everything, including this one thing, that I am going to be so so so busy doing what God wants me to do. I feel like this one thing that I want so bad, will never be answered. Yes I know that God will give me the desires of my heart, but I feel like this one prayer, will be the one He just says no to.

1 comment:

  1. yay! your first blog!! love it! Keep it up Kayla..love u bunches! Ps..keep listening christian music..it makes your day 1,000 times better! It took me while to do that as well..but now I cant listen to anything else..well except for 80's haha!!

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